dependent. disappointment.
I dislike needy and dependent people. I really do. I never could understand why people jump from one relationship to another, always chasing after someone and never taking the chance to slow down and breathe. My ex-boyfriend is/was one of these people. He always had a girl by his side. He admitted it; he was dependent. He always had to have someone there, right next to him, walking him through life. And I thought I could change him… Honestly, I’m a hopeless romantic. A bitter one, but a hopeless romantic nonetheless. I’ve been through my share of relationship troubles. I’ve been through my share of emotional rollercoasters. I know. In all honesty, I disapprove. I love you. More than you’ll ever know and more than I’ll ever reveal. I want nothing more than to see you happy. But I disapprove. I helped you as much as I could. I gave you as much advice as I thought would be helpful. I offered my time, my energy, my support, my everything for you. I’m glad that you listened, but I hate that you lied. Directly or indirectly, it doesn’t matter. You still lied to me. After all that I went through for you. If this is what makes you happy, then fine. I would never wish any unhappiness on you. I just wish that I could’ve been a better and stronger influence on you.
I know it’s hard to think and act with your head and not your heart, but sometimes it’s the better decision. I know all the quotes and sayings that tell you to take a chance, to be brave, to act upon love. I’m not saying those are lies. I’m just saying that sometimes, you need to be cautious. Love is and can be a wonderful thing, but sometimes it’s not. And you need to protect yourself, your heart.
