LOVE, LOLA

If you really knew me, 

You would know that because of today, three years ago, I still can’t go to Half Moon Bay. Three years ago today, I experienced grief and pain like I’ve never experienced before. Time does heal, but it can’t take back what’s already happened. A lot has happened since then. I’ve changed and grown and matured, or so I like to think. But I wonder how much different my life would be if they were still here for me. I wouldn’t be living the life I have now, that’s for sure. Sometimes, I wonder if they’re looking over me, over all of us. I’d like to think so. 

It was so hard to get past the initial feeling of loss, of shock, of disappointment, and of anger. But just because I got through it, doesn’t mean I don’t miss the both of you. I dearly wish that you’re both enjoying heaven, watching over your loved ones and waiting for the day when we’ll all meet again. 

I love you.